最后一天

今天是我在学校最后一天上课，我的心情并没有我想象中兴奋和愉快，也没有觉得不舍，只是觉得完成了一项任务。
无可否认的，我也学习了蛮多的，无论是从其他老师或学生身上。
我终于熬过了，我觉得我还蛮厉害的。请神赋于我力量，因为我又要踏出下一步了。

香格里拉

香格里拉是1933年英国著名小说家 詹姆斯. 希尔顿 在小说《消失的地平线》中所描绘的一个永恒，和平，宁静的地方。
那里，一片绝尘静域，神奇得让人一见倾心。
顾名思义就是人间天堂咯。
有人说希尔顿笔下的香格里拉在喜玛拉雅山的山脚；也有人说是中国的西藏。
两者我都没到过，所以没办法体会当中的美好。
但是，我相信地球上总有一些未被人类摧毁的净土。

我也想找到一个让我心旷神怡的人间天堂，我想应该很容易找到吧~本人对于美好的事物并没有设下很高的要求。
等我攒够了银两，我就去寻找属于我的香格里拉~>.<

请给我一点点。。。

我又在倒数了，倒数什么时候这一切会结束。原来工作真的会让一个人疯掉，尤其是你不喜欢这份工作。我尽量不要埋怨，不要投诉，把自己的感觉往口里塞，然后用万能胶封上来。
把自己困在自己的牢里其实很寂寞的，又不能跟别人分享，感觉就好像踩到牛屎一样。。。无言~
那么，在自己的部落格叹气一下总可以吧~

每次逃到没有后路的时候，还好可以回到这里，这里好安全，好安静，只有少数人会来关心我的部落格，会读中文的朋友更少，所以这里是我最好的避风港。

我是一个可怜虫
可怜虫需要一点勇气
只要一点勇气就够了
真的一点就够了~

P/S：我很想发出正面能量，但是没办法，最近很负面~

活过来了~

从吉隆坡回来已有几天了，感觉又回来了，可能是看了三部戏的关系吧！

连我妹妹看见我都说，我好想活过来了，之前好像一个死人一样。

哈哈~可能是吧！还好有美玉陪我说说话，有些东西我终于想通了，我会好好地规划我的未来的，你们不用担心。


我一直在想，身边的人总是想看我什么时候跌倒，什么时候失败，然后出现嘲笑我。但是我错了，真心朋友是不会的，因为他们看见我幸福，他们也会为我感到高兴。

P/S：有了新的爱好，就是收集故事~

One afternoon

I had donated some of my clothes to an organization this afternoon. Like my grandmother said, we never offer anything to anybody in the world but we took an awful lot. So, it is about time to give back some. 
After work, I have ample time to sort out all my old clothes and I found something interesting in my closet. My mum said, I should give out some nice and decent clothes to those children but not those frumpy clothes, so, I was having a tough time to decide which one is decent and which one is 'frumpy' .
Hahaha....talking about the interesting stuff in my closet....I found some clothes that I used to wear when I was in Form 5. Those are really ugly, old fashioned and frayed jeans.....and also some T-shirts which have already gone out of style....urggghhhh......why I didn't take care of my appearance in those golden age, no wonder nobody courted me that time....haiz
Moving on, if you still remember, Yik Hong designed a T-shirt for English Math Science society.....it is my favourite all the time. But it has become yellowish and unwearable now. Anyone is still keeping that shirt?? We have a lot of good memories there.
Besides that, my Temenggung and Jaguar T-shirts....it reminded me that we were always the loser in the sport days. Aisskkk....How much I wish we could get the champion for just one year. We lost the championship for 4 years continuously. Sad. Better delete this awful memory by throwing the T-shirts. 
 And you know, I have many jackets and sweaters. I donated half of them so I can get some new one....Hehe...still have evil intention in my good deed. I also helped my sister to give out some T-shirts, everybody knows she is a shopaholic. >.<
Good news......I also can get some news jeans now because I lost weight, I think 3kg. I have been jogging for some time, it is time to see the result of my effort. Bulge, please go away, I don't need you in my life...haha
With the sun streaming into my room, I was having a good time with all my clothes.

P/S: My mood is green colour today.

Let me decide~

I was sending resume out today. I hope I will get some good news soon. Erm.....I don't care anymore, just hand everything to God, and see what happen ahead.
People are giving advices to me all these days. I am sick of it already. I want to decide on my own, so please don't force me to accept any of those experience talks already. Because if I never try, I will never know. If you say I will regret in the future, then let me regret.  
Maybe regrets gives my life curves but not horizontal lines.

25 Little Things That You Don't Need To Know About Me~

After I read Liu Xuan's book, I decided to have my own list too----25 little things that you don't need to know about me. Just like Liu Xuan said, the least important things actually are those important details that we used to miss it. I cracked my brain and came out with this list. Enjoy it but don't feel bored because they are really unimportant.

1. I like when my friends call me Xian. It sounds like we are family more than friends. My uncles and aunties like to call me Xian Xian. I always complain about this because I don’t want them to treat me like a kid. However, I still feel warm every time I hear them call me Xian Xian. 
2. I keep all the letters and cards that my friends sent me. I keep them well in a box. I will take it out to refresh my memory when I feel bored. Therefore, sometimes my mum worries when I smile or laugh alone in my room.
3. Talking about letters, I think the most romantic job in this world is postman. Postmen are just like angels because they have changed people’s life indirectly. But after all the emails, messages, facebook and msn, postmen are not very important in most of the societies. It is sad because the new generation is not going to have chance to feel the warmth of the letters.
4. I think I am rather smart because when I read, I totally understand what the writers are trying to say. And my friends always need me to re-explain the content of a book every time we read. But there is one book that I really don’t quite get it. The book is bible. I feel stupid when I read bible. Even I have pastors and friends to explain to me when I am in a total confusion. I talked to my Father personally but as usual He didn’t answer. So, just pretend I understand and take all the official explanations.
5. My friends said women need to know how to tackle alcohol. She asked me to try and learn how to drink alcohol. I know we need to know how to drink or ‘sip’ alcohol when we socialize in the future. But my body cannot take any foods or liquids which is BITTER. If alcohol tastes like Rebena, maybe I will shout: “Come! A glass of gin and tonic!”
6. I bought a sketch book last year and hope to draw something when I am free. Until now, my sketch book is still very clean and stays smartly on the shelf. I think it is time to buy some crayons. Haha~
7. My sister bought an English book for O Level. The title of the book is ‘Mastering Tough Vocabulary’. I laughed at my sister and started flipping over the book. Eventually, I spent the whole evening reading the book. Those vocabs are truly TOUGH. It was very challenging, I like it.^^
8. I am really scared of cold.

My father is happy because he does not need to buy me an air-con.

Sweaters and jackets are always in my shopping list.

If I forget to bring sweater to cinema, I will curse myself.

My friends say I am insane because I have two blankets on my bed.

Thank God, I am living in Malaysia.

9. Every time before I go out, I will remind myself to bring recycle bag. I am not a politician who can help or improve the environment, but at least I reduce the chances of creating so many burdens to the earth.
10. When I was in secondary school, I subscribed a monthly high school magazine called “Zhong Xue Sheng”. I like it so much and I keep all of them in a special box (actually I have many boxes). But last time, when we decided to relocate some of our belongings to our shop, mum threw all my magazines away. I gone crazy and decided to go back to the land field and looked for my magazines. Luckily with my sister’s help, my magazines were saved. Mum, please don’t throw away my memory, they are way too important than my clothes. If you want to throw something, please go to my closet.
11. Talking about my boxes, I also keep my Form Six Chemistry notes in it. My chemistry was not very good but I liked Chemistry class very much. In Mrs Lai’s class, chemistry is no longer just the symbol H2O but it is about life. We can smell, touch and see life through knowing more about chemistry. Since then, I see myself as a person who knows life but not an exam machine. For me, she is not a teacher, she is a scientist.
12. I remember since last time I did not sleep well for few days just to finish my assignments, it caused me a very serious period pain. This seldom happens to me, but I think because of those stressful days, period pain came to knock my door. I went to the pharmacy to buy some painkiller. The pharmacist advised me not to take too much pills because it will cause some side effects. I told him this seldom happened and I promised just to take one. If the pain still continue, I will just let it be. But he still stood there and blah blah blah….

Then I asked him: “xiao di di, do you know what period pain is?”

He kept quiet. Then I continued.

“Period pain is just like thousands of elephants step over my stomach.”

“So, give me the pills.”

He stunned for a while and gave me the pills and kept the money.

I feel sorry for him but he should understand it was not my fault, it was hormone’s fault.

13. I like junk food. But since last time Ceek Chean gave me an “organic food lesson” in the supermarket, I think twice before I buy any junk food.
14. I don’t like to do chores. But once again, after went to Pulau Redang with Ceek Chean, I changed my habit. I clean my room at least two times a week.
15. Ceek Chean is a mean old hag. Blek.^^
16. I brush my teeth before I wash my face. You want me to change the order? NO WAY.
17. My favorite lecturer is Dr. Carmen. I hope I have a sister like her to teach me how to think critically and write academically.
18. My left foot is bigger than my right foot. Therefore, sometimes I just hate wearing heels. It is too excruciating seeing one of my foot staying in the heel which is not its size.
19. I don’t look down on people who look down on me. I look down on those people who look down themselves.
20. If I have extra time and money, I would like to learn sewing and patchwork. Somehow, I think I have the talent.
21. I went back to my high school last week and saw the painting that we drew on the wall when we were in Form Six. I remember Pei San drew that black-green coconut tree……Haha… How good it is if all of us just don’t grow up.
22. A chef looks more charming than a musician. (For me ^^)
23. Although sometimes my uncles, aunties and mum say something bad about my grandfather, I think he is the most caring and thoughtful person in my life. No matter what they say, I respect you grandpa as a hero deep in my heart.
24. My sister told me to have a saving plan from now on and I am actually doing it now. I hope I can buy my own house in the coming future. >< So Excited!!
25. Finally and lastly, this is the least important and you really don’t need to know about it-----I love my family and friends.